1. Its 11.37 P.M, I should be asleep.

2. One of the reasons I try doing all of these things (art, music etc) is because I feel I would be undeserving of experiencing them otherwise. For example when I was younger, there was this cycle of trading card games I would get interested in, for each one, I would have designed and made my own card game myself (or with friends)... I would get very frustrated with myself if I couldn't do it. Nowadays I do things more out of pure interest and passion and don't find myself thinking about being "undeserving".

3. I'm a particularly obsessive fellow, I think I've only just calmed down from my obsession of the Red Hot Chili Peppers and in particular John Frusciante's wonderful playing. Before then it was an obsession of zombies, before that maybe halo or something... before that zombies.

4. As you can tell, I'm quite a drawn out person who talks alot.

5. I also feel like I talk about myself alot, I don't like it when I feel conscious of it... this journal doesn't help.

6. I love writing lyrics, I might move onto more poetic stuff because then I don't have to worry about writing music or having it not go anywhere... I probably love it most because its fairly fast to do and gives a sense of achievement.

7. I rarely finish anything other than food.

8. I always have to be right, I'll debate your ass to the death... even over small, unnecessary things... sorry about that.

9. I am a hopeless romantic once I get into relationships...

10. When I get dumped, I don't care all that much, but I act like I do around others.

11. When I've been cheated on (more than once), I haven't cared... I dunno if that makes me a bitch but my reaction is too nihilistic to tell.

12. I have Aspergers Syndrome, I was diagnosed as a small child, I was told I'd never go to a normal school (I do!) and people who self diagnose themselves as an excuse for their problems really piss me off.

13. I realise when I'm not being socially sensible, I then continue it to see people's reactions... I may be alienating some of my friends because of this.

14. At times I've made very outspoken political statements... In reality I know very little compared to what I should... I may become apolitical since its an unhealthy forcing of ones own beliefs and practices on another... like religion

15. I look at myself every time I pass a reflective surface, I may even stop to look at myself... Its not even vanity... I just can't help it.

16. Is my age as of now

17. Will be my age on 27th November 2009

18. I may be what you call an eccentric... I think a good example is when I was told to be spontaneous and aggressive in my painting style during Art and I immediately bit off a piece of paint soaked paper off my piece of work... spat it out and then used it as a brush on the piece of work.

19. I'm not homophobic, and I hate homophobic people. But I have the habit of spontaneously calling someone gay

20. I'm not religious, I like philosophy and spirituality though as well as debating beliefs.

21. I can fluctuate between mumbles and yelling quite alot, my indoor voice has to be manually activated alot of the time.

22. No one has, or ever will have a good first impression of me.

23. I expect to be given a chance, I rarely give other people a chance though.

24. I do know in my head when its my fault, but I'll still blame someone else to avoid looking stupid... even when that would make it worse.

25. Its now 00.21 A.M... I should still be asleep